Chain of love.

Just one of my favorites...

Danny's song by Kenny Loggins

"People smile and tell me I'm the lucky one,
And we've only just begun.
Think I'm gonna have a son.
He will be like she and me, as free as a dove,
Conceived in love.
Sun is gonna shine above.

And even though we ain't got money,
I'm so in love with you, honey,
And everything will bring a chain of love.
And in the morning, when I rise,
You bring a tear of joy to my eyes
And tell me everything is gonna be alright.

Seems as though, a month ago, I was Beta-Chi,
Never got high.
Oh, I was a sorry guy.
And now, I smile and face the girl that shares my name.
Now I'm through with the game.
This boy will never be the same.

And even though we ain't got money,
I'm so in love with you, honey,
And everything will bring a chain of love.
And in the morning, when I rise,
You bring a tear of joy to my eyes
And tell me everything is gonna be alright.

Pisces, Virgo rising is a very good sign,
Strong and kind,
And the little boy is mine.
Now I see a family where the once was none.
Now we've just begun.
Yeah, we're gonna fly to the sun.

And even though we ain't got money,
I'm so in love with you, honey,
And everything will bring a chain of love.
And in the morning, when I rise,
You bring a tear of joy to my eyes
And tell me everything is gonna be alright.

Love the girl who holds the world in a paper cup.
Drink it up.
Love her and she'll bring you luck.
And if you find she helps your mind, better take her home.
Don't you live alone.
Try to earn what lovers own.

And even though we ain't got money,
I'm so in love with you, honey,
And everything will bring a chain of love.
And in the morning, when I rise,
You bring a tear of joy to my eyes
And tell me everything is gonna be alright."

STABILITY.

Stability.
It's something we crave. As parents, it's something you want to be for your children. Through your marriage, your parenting/guidance, and as a provider. It's a goal for me to be for my children. Sometimes, because of circumstances or because we are just human, stability can be pulled right from under our feet. We aren't promised tomorrow, we aren't even promised today. We can make plans, but God sometimes has something else in store for us. We are ever-changing. Simply floaters. We have no control. We like to think we do, for some reason the idea of stability in our hands seems comforting. But think about it... Would you rather rest assure that you are putting your faith in something bigger? I sure would. I know myself. I can be a failure. I can stumble. I can fall. I would just rather put my plans and faith in God. He's in control of them after all. My devotion this morning was about a God that never changes.
"For I am The Lord, I do not change; therefore you are not consumed, O sons of Jacob." Malachi 3:6.
Things may change frequently in our lives, but God doesn't. He never has, never will. We are promised this. (Hebrews 13:8) how comforting is that? Sometimes life brings absolute chaos, but in the midst of this God is still our rock. Just like when Jesus was in the boat during a storm with the disciples. As the waves were crashing around them - Jesus was asleep. I know I would be just like those disciples and would have been terrified, but Jesus simply woke up and calmed the storm. We have that same Christ, and even those same storms. Why worry? So thankful this morning for my stability, my rock. God is good all the time. All the time God is good.

TWELVE & <3

Finally, finally, finally feeling better. Minus a few little episodes, I'm fantastic. Not fully back to my high energy life. I'm still down from my original weight but maintaining it. There's really not much of a bump. I have noticed a little something, but not anything most people could see :) My jeans have been falling off of me due to weight loss {something I'm sure will be changing soon.} Not much else to report. Happy to be holding my little babe each and everyday. Pregnancy is such a sweet blessing!
Oh yea...

IT'S VALENTINE'S DAY!

Sunday we got to celebrate by going on a quiet date ALONE. I love Mr. Grayson, but a toddler on a date is just plain difficult. It was nice to talk to my husband and spend the time eating instead of forcing little man to eat. Did I mention how much I love my hubby? He prayed before our dinner and thanked God for me as a wife and mother. He also prayed that God would lift him up as a husband and father. Um, what a sweetie. I'm very grateful for him and all he does for our family. God is good to us.
Hope everyone has a wonderful valentines day. God bless you all <3

NINE WEEKS

Well I'm a little late with my blog updates on pregnancy. I think it's because I still can't really believe it! So let me start from the beginning...
We found out 2 days before Christmas. We had planned on waiting Christmas morning but I decided to focus all that attention on Grayson opening his presents... And well I was a little excited. I took the test and 2 pink lines started to show. Very light little lines, but 2 nonetheless. I actually was about 90 percent sure it would be positive because I was feeling very pregnant.
My symptoms have been insane this pregnancy. Nausea, low blood pressure, blacking out, and extreme fatigue. All the above didn't happen with Grayson. I felt a little nauseous with him, but nothing like this. For several weeks I have been a horrible housewife. If I stand up quickly I have to lay down because everything turns black. I just want to lay in bed all day with the covers over my head. Miserable. Thankfully days like these are becoming less and less. Please pray that I will have more energy.
Seeing my little baby for the first time made things a lot better. He/She is worth it all. So precious. Brought tears to my eyes to think our little family is growing. Grayson will be a big brother, and more feet will be running all over this house. Thanking God for so many blessings. He's so very good. :)

AWKWARD.

I'm so very awkward.

Today it was shinin' bright like a diamond.

It was going great Christmas shopping, Starbucks... Christmas cheer. Then BAM flat tire, cold rain, crap. All we had was a horrible jack that just made my husbands blood pressure spike. So a very nice guy gave us a jack and waited until the job was done. Since I had just gone shopping and had no cash I thought I need to give this guy something. Looking through what I had I found a jar of nuts. Yes, a jar of nuts. I proceeded to get out of my car, handed him the nuts and said " thank you... Merry Christmas." Here's some nuts. NUTS!?!! At that moment looking at his face, I realized... WHY didn't I just say " thank you" needless to say they were the cinnamon sugar pecans, but still nuts. I'm sure he will be having a Merry Christmas thanks to those. And maybe even a Happy New Year.

Random awkward facts about me:

1. I can't say no to people. I was once in a wedding of someone I barely knew. I still to this day only know her first name. I basically showed up and smiled for pictures. It happened.

2. I once tired to communicate with a deaf person. It took me a good 10 minutes to finally realize he was deaf.

3. I mess up lyrics all the time. Sometimes changing them ( unknowingly ) to dirty things and then singing them in front of my in laws. Only to realize its not " West Virginia. Mount ya mama it's " West Virginia, mountain mama." And jimmy buffet didn't step on a pop tart, he stepped on a pop top.
There is more awkwardness... But I feel I have already shared too much. Thankfully I can laugh at myself and move on. ;)

THE FORGOTTEN.

Last night was a moment of memories. Talking about people that are no longer around. Cherishing those wonderful moments. People that my son was never fortunate to meet. Amazing grandparents, great grandparents, friends, other family members. Simply memories. Memories that are long lasting, but don't stick around forever. It's heartbreaking to think I can't share those memories with my son. He will never understand them like I do.
I realized how completely pointless our lives truly are. We are all going down the same road of being only a name. Maybe a picture. Maybe some documents. But no memories. Depressing? A little. As a Christian my view is different. It's NOT about us. It's what we bring to the future generations. It's WHO we are IN Christ. All those things we worry will soon pass, all those things that we love will soon pass. The Word of God is forever. It stands till the end of time, time cannot kill it. It is the same yesterday, today and forever. I just realized, yes it is important to make wonderful memories with loved ones. We can still do this. It's just a reminder that life is short.
Serve a purpose. Serve God. Love people.
Not to us, but to your name be the glory.

PAINTING WITH GRAY.

What a wonderful rainy day. Rainy days with toddlers mean... you must get creative. So a little fun music, a large drop cloth canvas, wrapping paper, paint, and the inspiration of a 16 month boy. A great way to roll those clouds away and create our own little sunshine. Sidenote: Grayson hates paint on his hands and feet. He only wanted the paint brush.