thirty five/six.

35-36 weeks

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The above quilt was handmade by my mom. She is a genious when it comes to whipping up some art. She can do just about anything paint, clay, sewing, handy work around the house... etc etc. Shes really a freak of nature. Shes the best mommy and she is going to make a wonderful grandmother. I don't know what I would do without her.

We did it, we moved in! Its so exciting for me and Josh, I really just want to pinch myself. It's just perfect. I was so worried I was going to have to stay in that little old apartment. God took care of it. I just now am going to be busy nesting for a couple of weeks. Which is perfectly fine for me because I have been waiting so long to do it.

4 more weeks........

REALLY!!?!!!?? I have been so busy with this moving, I didn't even realize its THAT close! Im so excited, but at the same time... so scared. Theres just alot of things happening right now and Im just trying to soak it all in. Please pray that he waits at least 4 weeks, haha.

So here we go:

Name: Grayson Lee Fuhr

Symptoms: Oh good grief... Sleeplessness, body aches, swollen hands & feet, headaches, leg nerve pain, laziness. I'm feeling it. Just trying to push thru the pain and get this stuff done. It's a little hard to move a house and prep for a baby with all this! It will be worth it in the end... but please pray for me.

Weight: All together I have gained about 21 pounds.

Cravings: Cherry Icees, I'm a little obsessed.

Sleep: (see above symptoms and just take a guess)

So with the new move, Im hoping to update my blog every now and then. I would like to show you his nursery we are currently working on. So hopefully I will find the time to update.

God Bless!

Emilie

thirty three.

33 weeks

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Gender: Boy

Name: Grayson Lee Fuhr

Symptoms: It seems like I'm feeling more and more pregnant everyday. My back and shoulders have been killing me!! KILLING ME!! Nothing seems to help with it either. Oh well, just 6 more weeks to push thru. :) I also breathe like a 80 yr. old women. I will just walk down the stairs and be out of breath. Josh makes fun of me all the time. lol.

You gotta love the third trimester, haha.

Weight: Since my doctor talked to me about a month ago on gaining weight, I gained 6 pounds. Trust me it was easy to do, lol. I feel like I still am a healthy weight and quite glad I havent gained a large amount so far. We shall see within the next few weeks.

Cravings: Nothing specific. Just very random things sometimes.

Sleep: I have been sleeping horribly. I toss and turn all night and Im in alot of pain most of the time. (shoulder pain) Plus, I have so much on my mind right now.

When I went to my appt. last week my doctor measured my belly and said " Your measuring perfect". She said "right at 31 weeks." I was like well if I were 31 weeks it would be... They had my weeks messed up in my chart. I was 33. She decided to order me a ultrasound to see if he was measuring ok. I, of course, was completely worried that I either wasnt eating the amount I should, or something was wrong with him. So I pushed for an early ultrasound so we could find the results asap. I went in for the ultrasound and everything looked perfectly normal!! Thank you Lord!! He weighs 4lbs 11 oz and is 18 inches. Completely on track at 33 weeks. He was even facing my back and had flipped, ready to come out already :) I was so thrilled to see him. They said I will measure small because I have a long torso. I didnt really care, I was just glad I had a healthy, adorable little boy. They tried to get some good 4D images, but they came out all blurred and messed up :( This is because his arms and hands were all on his face and he was facing my back. I did get a sneak peek of his lips, nose, feet, hands, arms, and well you know. lol

His little foot :)

He has a full head of hair! I think hes going to be a mini Josh. His lips look just like his!

I have failed to mention we will be moving either this weekend or the next. So I am going to be staying pretty busy within the next several days. Please pray for a smooth move!

thirty one.

31 weeks

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Gender: Boy

Name: Grayson Lee Fuhr

Symptoms: Ohhh man... the symptoms. I literally can't walk at times. My legs cramp up right down the middle and I just have to stop walking. I guess my body is preparing itself to have Grayson, but my goodness!! I feel so strange lately. I also have trouble tieing my shoes, painting my toe nails, etc. It's a little annoying. On top of that I am packing and moving this month. Im so tired! It will all be worth it though, I just need to take one step at a time.

Weight: I'm gaining at a healthy rate. I still find it odd to see the numbers on my scale saying what they say, but I feel healthy and Grayson is healthy with me at this weight :)

Cravings: Icecream. I just ate a pint of Graters coconut chocolate chip. To be honest, if I had more, I would go back for seconds! Best icecream EVER!

Sleep: Not so well, but thankfully being home now I can sleep in on my nights I have trouble sleeping. I can't "roll" out of bed very good either haha. I get stuck sometimes. Im not use to being this big.

Please pray for our move. Please pray that I will have the energy and strength to get through this. Pray for Josh as he is really, really busy with work at the moment.

Thanks!

Home Sweet Home

Buying a home is extremely stressful sometimes!! Esp. when you are pregnant and just want to snap your fingers into moving. I had the hardest time just trusting God would take care of things. It's hard to let go of something you want SO badly. I fell in love with this house. We decided to make an offer, Josh opted for a low, low number. The whole time I wanted to throw up as he said that number out loud. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! They are going to laugh at us. I finally went upstairs took a shower and prayed outloud. The only thing that I could think of after I prayed was the verse: " Wives, submit to your own husbands as to the Lord. " Ephesians 5:22. I just bit my bottom lip and prayed a prayer that I would do just that. I had a complete peace afterward. I even had a peace that even if we lost the house, God would still provide for us. I was even ready to walk away. After we offically made the offer, we thought it was over. Then we received a phone call that almost made my heart stop! They asked if that offer was still on the table!!!!!

Let me tell you, God is SO very good!!! There are times in your life when you just need to give it all to God, pray on it, and let whatever happens....happen. You will have a strange peace that only God can give.

The Front: I love the front and backyard to this house. It's amazing, I didnt get to capture it on camera. It has BIG shade trees and around 2 acres surrounding us. Beautiful. Thankfully the road leading to our house isn't busy at all. Peace and Quiet.

The Kitchen: The first part that I see is of course the dishwasher!!! Im SO sick of washing dishes by hand. This sold me pretty much, haha. I also love the large space, I like alot of wiggle room when cooking. Plus it is in a room with a fireplace which will be super cozy in the winter.
The Bathroom: It's adorable. Newly remodeled so nice features. I like the simple white.
First Bedroom: I love this room. It's kind of small, but I love the storage in this house. This is one of the most charming rooms.
Living Room: There are 2 living spaces in this house. The first near the kitchen & the second in the middle of the house. They are really open and I love them. The hardwood floors are beautiful! Much better than carpet!

Second Bedroom: This is all furnished by the previous owners, I took these while looking at the house. This is going to be Grayson's room, I have alot to do to this room and I can't wait to start!! Thankfully this bedroom is very close to our bedroom so I can just walk quickly to his room.
Third Bedroom: This is going to be our bedroom, it has a fairly large walk in closet. Along with another smaller one. I wonder who will be getting the walk in closet?! haha.
The backyard: AMAZING. This is my favorite,favorite! It has a beautiful little garden off to the side, a fire pit, sunroom, horse shoes, and trees galore!!! I can't wait for this to be our hangout area!! Not to mention our house is so close to creeks to go canoeing and fishing in! Grayson is going to have a blast here!

So there you go, a few pics of our home. Can't you tell im excited, haha! I really couldn't have asked for a better home. After looking a good 3 years, it finally happened.

I'm going to start packing now...

:)

twenty nine.

29 weeks

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Tomorrow I will hit the 30 week mark, which means it could be ONLY 10 weeks to go!

Gender: Boy

Name: Grayson Lee Fuhr.

Finally a middle name!! Lee is a family name after my great grandpa Walter Lee, which I was very fortunate to have in my life. Lee is also in many other names in my family. Kimberly, Karen Lee, Ashlee, Emilie. Josh loved this name before it was even suggested, so all in all it worked out. finally.

Symptoms: A little emotional lately, but considering the things that are happening in my life its to be expected. Theres just so much change. Quit my job, looking at houses, and preparing for this little boy! I'm feeling more pregnant than ever, its hard to do most things I used to be able to do. I have learned to take it easy, because things just aren't that easy anymore. I am very lucky tho, I seemed to have very little symptoms.

Weight: I was weighed last week at my appt. My doctor said I am at a good weight, but could gain a little more. COULD is the keyword, lol. I'm not going to go out and eat a whole bunch of food because of this, but I am trying to eat a little more. I just really haven't been very hungry with him. There are days tho I feel like eating all day, haha.

Cravings: I can't think of anything specific. Just sweets and summer treats!

Sleep: Our AC not been working, so very little. Thankfully this will be fixed soon, its just been so flippin hot at night!

I will be posting pictures soon, of this amazing large belly I am growing. Im not the best at taking photos of myself so Josh will be helping soon. haha.

Please pray that these stress levels will go down. We have found a possible home and theres so much going on with that. [details soon]

Please also continue to pray for the health of our little baby.

Much love,

Emilie

green acres.

"honey i love you, but give me park ave."

So lately we have been looking at houses, which I have told you about a possible home we are really looking more into. Its fan freakin' tastic. Beautiful, beautiful GREEN grass, rolling hills, an adorable creek. A charming little home all the way. In the country. Everything I would want in a home. At the same time, im a big chicken. I have been a "city" girl most of my life. I enjoy my starbucks, my target, my icecream. I was a little spoiled to have everything at my finger tips. Am I ready to give it up... yeaaaa... but I sure will miss it. Ok, so you are thinking we are moving a good 2 hours away from any life lol. Nope 15-20 minutes from the small town of Cynthiana. Thats IF we get this home. Ridic?! you bet. Cynthiana is a cute little town, but it doesnt have a KROGER haha. Trust me I will get used to it, its just so strange to me. It's well worth the small town charm and beautiful horse farm views. I will just have to be getting used to making my own coffee, growing my own veggies, curning my own butter, milking my cows.... haha. 15-20 mins really isnt that bad at all, I will however been in a culture shock once and if we move. Josh not so much, he basically could live in the middle of nowhere and adapt perfectly fine. I'll stick with him, hes got those "backwoods" smarts. I'm proud of him.

Please be praying that we will make the right decision.

xoxo.

twenty eight.

28 weeks

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Gender: B O Y

Name: Grayson Fuhr... middle name STILL pending

Symptoms: I have been feeling pretty well lately. Anxious, nervous, but well. At night I will wake up with horrible charlie horses in my foot. Then my leg will start to cramp badly. I started drinking water and eating more bananas and it seems to have helped alot. I also have mild back aches, but nothing serious. All in all im pretty lucky.

Weight: So far I have gained the total of 16 pounds. Which is very normal at this rate. Im pretty happy with it. I am starting to walk more so it will be good weight I put on.

Cravings: The weirdest craving by far was for school pizza, a salad, and chocolate milk. Yesterday I had a craving for Derby pie, I wanted a good homemade derby pie. Terry and Kathys wasnt open Sunday so I just made one, haha.

Sleep: I sleep really well, he wakes me up sometimes with flopping around. Grayson has become quite the mover lately! He keeps getting stronger and those once flutters have become very aggresive. lol. I can even see my belly move every once in a while. Its one of the coolest things.

Josh and I have possibly found the perfect home. After searching for a good year, I believe its the one. I have drove by it maybe... 4 times already haha. We got to see the house last week with my Aunt Rhonda and an appraiser.

Some features of the home include:

3 bedrooms

1.5 baths

1.6 acres (which backs up to a huge beautiful horse farm)

REAL hardwood floors ( my favorite)

sunroom

basement

fireplace

2 living spaces

So cross your fingers that everything works out, if it doesn't I can except it... but I will be pretty disappointed. Yay, for new changes! Please pray for us and this journey :)

twenty six.

3 Days ...... Just 3 more days! It's going to be bittersweet, but totally worth it. I have worked at Paragon Family Practice for a good 5 1/2 years now. They honestly have become family to me. They basically watched me grow up. They watched as I got married, started my life, and now grow a little baby boy inside me. I will miss them im sure, but I also can't wait to prepare for my little Grayson.

So I have been pretty worried about finding the perfect place to live lately. As a soon to be mommy, I want everything to be running smoothly and well perfect. Thats pretty much impossible, lol. I have learned to put my trust in God lately. I realized even though I hate my apartment and the location as much as I do, I still need to be happy. Everything will work out. I heard on KLove this wonderful quote : " Jesus meets our needs as our need arises" This brought me so much comfort. I understood at that moment that I have everything I need, and God has provided all along the way. Then I felt a little silly for worrying. I also thought about how Jesus came into the world, born in a manger. Then never really had a place to lay his head. How selfish of me to even ask for a better place. At the same time I feel like it is time to move on, so I am praying for Gods wisdom and direction at the moment. Im letting him open the doors. The good news is we got prequalified, and can now start looking at houses. We have a house we are going to be looking at next Tuesday :) :) The great part about it is im not stressing about it anymore. If its meant to be it will work out, if not I will make this apartment into a home. Im still so very happy either way! I can't wait for the projects to begin!

Please pray for both me and Josh as we are making these decisions. We have huge things coming into lives. We want them to be what God wants for us. Pray also for Grayson and his health.

twenty five.

25 weeks!

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Gender: Boy

Name: Grayson ______ Fuhr ( still deciding middle name)

Symptoms: Things have changed pretty drastically lately. Maybe its because im going into my THIRD trimester, who knows. It just has been quite the ride. I thought I had developed something called PUPPPS ( Pruritic Urticarial Papules and Plagues of Pregnancy) pretty much a nasty rash until you have your baby. Its HORRIBLY itchy, like having the chicken pox for several months. It doesn't harm your baby, but it will drive you crazy. My doctor thought it could be that or just an allergic reaction..... thank goodness I was just allergic to my body wash! I was so very happy. Another thing that has been happening lately is Braxton Hicks and these stupid little round ligament spasms. Its like having mini contractions. Completely normal during this time, but still strange and scary sometimes. Oh, yea and Im getting bigger. Fun times. I was complaining for the longest time on how Im not really showing yet and hes just growing and growing. You can now tell im pregnant, I dont have to stick it out there now, haha.

Weight: Im gaining... thankfully not much, but still its so strange to see those numbers go up. I forget Im pregnant sometimes and think how in the world?!? Then look down at the large belly. lol

Cravings: I have the " I need that" cravings. I need everything anyone is eating. Its not anything specific, just everything. haha. Most of the time I check out what other people are having for lunch, then go out and buy it myself. Maybe Grayson is going to have peer pressure problems when he grows up lol?

Sleep: Hardly any, I have horrible anxiety issues at night. Its when all my thoughts race and drives me insane. Which is really crumy because I get so tired throughout the day.

Tomorrow is my FIRST baby shower for Grayson!! :) My wonderful work is throwing me a party since I will be leaving them soon ( May 11th). Im so excitied to get little baby things!!!!

Pictures to come soon .............

twenty three.

23 weeks

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Gender: Still a boy ;)

Name: We have one picked out, and we will share soon.....

Symptoms: Feeling amazing! Just a bit emotional at times, but really this is nothing new. I loose my breath very easily when I do certain tasks. I hardly ever have cravings. Somedays I feel like eating a bunch, somedays I have to force myself to eat. I fall in love with my little boy more and more everyday. Its kind of crazy that you can have such a bond with someone you haven't even meet yet. Hes already on a schedule, he wakes up when I eat and at 12:00 at night. Its so strange. Its like clock work right at 12 he starts wiggling like a little worm. I love him.

Weight: I haven't checked in a while. I know Im growing, but I feel good about my weight. I guess Im just not keeping track of the numbers.

Cravings: When I do have them, its something sweet or fruity.

Sleep: So, so.

The nesting thing seems to be coming and going. Somedays I clean like a crazy, others I just want to sleep. I love getting little boy clothes, my mom randomly sends them in the mail for me! I can't wait until he fills them with his little chunky legs! Ahhh, i love babies. Speaking of which, I getting to meet my little neice, Lula, soon :) :) Can't wait!!

twenty two.

22 weeks

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Gender: B O Y !

Name: ______ ____ _____ ( got one, but still unsure)

Symptoms: Bloating, fattness. Im not use to this bump getting in my way. It's still not big yet, but its just there and annoying. Ive never had a gut before lol. I just feel ugly lately, but it will go away. I have also been pretty emotional lately, poor Josh. I think the fact my dog died doesnt make things any better, but even if that didnt happen I would find a reason to cry. Sometimes I cry and have no idea why lol. I feel stupid so I just make up something. Thankfully I am learning when this is going to happen and try to control it.

Gotta love those hormones!

Weight: So I was bragging to mom about how Im not really gaining that much weight. I thought I was just feeling bloated and thats all lol. Then I stepped on the scale... hahahahaha. I have gained about 10 pounds since I got pregnant. Which is fairly normal, but gee wiz. So im walking that extra fat off. I want to be healthy when I gain.

Cravings: Not really anything this week.

Sleep: Im sleeping ok. It just seems my little buddy has been more active in the morning which usually wakes me up.

Movement: Hes nuts. He moves usually after I eat, when he wants to eat, when he wants to sleep, when he wants to wake up. So he pretty much moves alot! I love it tho! Hes really gaining some strength lately!

Nesting.

Nesting, panic, craze.

So at a certain point in your pregnancy you get a little itch called "nesting." It's a little insane. Im pretty sure its all I think about these days. I do think its completely built into us, just look at those fat little robins hopping around . They don't look very panicked, but deep down inside they must be. haha. Today I was quickly reminded of the following verse...

And He said to His disciples, "For this reason I say to you, do not worry about your life, as to what you will eat; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing? Consider the ravens, for they neither sow nor reap; they have no storeroom nor barn, and yet God feeds them; how much more valuable you are than the birds! And which of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life's span? If then you cannot do even a very little thing, why do you worry about other matters? Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; but I tell you, not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass in the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, how much more will He clothe you? You men of little faith! And do not seek what you will eat and what you will drink, and do not keep worrying. Luke 12:22-29

Makes me feel pretty sheepish actually. Here I am worrying day and night about moving, preparing for this baby, and hoping Im going to be a good momma. When in reality God's got it under control. Yea, we dont have a house yet... but it will work out. Too be honest Im going to have to come back to this post pretty often to remind myself of this. Its so easy to look at my growing belly and completely PANIC. Im just so thankful God has showed this to me today. As for right now im going to go feed the birds and enjoy this beautiful day God has given me.

Please pray that God will give us direction and peace.

God Bless

Em

twenty.

20 weeks

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I told Josh last night that I just miss having someone to give my love too. I have Josh, but Im talking about the motherly nuturing type of love. He said the sweetest thing... he said Em you have a little baby growing in you, you are always snuggling. This made me sleep better last night, I just rubbed my belly and realized theres light at the end of this darkness. Im so thankful for Josh.

Gender: BOY!!!

Symptoms: I haven't really noticed any changes yet, I have been feeling rather well.

Weight: Im feeling a little bigger, may have gained a pound or 2 within the last week. Im happy with my weight tho. I am currently in maternity clothes, I call them my fat pants. They are amazing.

Carvings: Pasta salad from Fazolis. Strange I know, but Ive been eating tons of them.

Sleep: Not so good to be honest, I'm just missing a certain someone and wake up in a panic looking for him. Not to mention my baby is a little wild man at night!

Movement: I feel him move everyday, a kick here and there. Just to make me realize he loves me I think ;) Or its a move mom, give me food mom move. lol

Prayers: Please continue to pray for me and Josh, we have had several Ups and downs during this pregnancy. The loss of Josh's cousin and huckleberry are still affecting us. Please pray that we hold on to the hope of our child and remember God's in control of all things. Please also pray for the health of me and my baby :)

A pup named Huck.

Please just be patient with me as I rant and whine. I know the little dog above to you means nothing more than a picture, but he was more to me. And this just seems to be the place to let it all out.

So here it goes...

I never thought in a million years he would have ever gone so soon. My little huckleberry, my sidekick. We did everything together. I serously had an unheathly realtionship with him. It is maybe due to the fact that I don't have children myself... or its just because thats just how it was going to be. But we were inseparable. So yes, you are thinking Em.. just a dog. BUT let me tell you, he wasnt. Lassie, Marley and Old Yeller had nothing on Huck. He protected us, kept us company, loved us unconditionally, made us laugh, made us cry, and hes just gone. This dog even trained HIMSELF to ring a bell when he wanted outside, he feed himself food, and was easily trainable. I think he did this just so he wouldnt bother us. Best dog I have ever had. Am I being dramatic, NO, I loved him and he deserves to be talked about in this way.

I miss him horribly. I came home from a busy day of work, plopped my stuff on the couch and let huck outside. It was a beautiful day, in the 70's so I decided to let huck out longer to enjoy the weather. I ate dinner, went online and went to look out the door to see if he was ok. I noticed.. he was gone. I completely started panicking. Me and my 20 week old preggo belly started out on the hunt. Josh wasnt home yet to help, but I thought I would find him anyway. I walked and drove street by street, nothing. I asked several people and some said they had just saw a little beagle 5 mins. ago! So my hopes where up again. 6 hours later, 2 people searching, and 10 signs made. Josh decided it was enough and for me and told to take a break because im pregnant. He asked me to go to bed and told me " he is probably in someones bed and they will turn him in tomorrow" He just didnt want me to get upset because of the baby. And to be honest I still think he had some hope, and so did I. So I gave him NyQuil, waited for him to drift off to sleep and went back in my car to do some searching. I drove street by street again, and once again nothing. So i decided to check the main road and a little subdivison next to ours. As I am driving back to my house I see a fresh pool of blood and drive on. Deep in the pit of my heart I knew, but didnt want to look. I had to know so I turned around and drove by it again. I looked to the side and there he was a little white tail, adorable brown and black ears, and those long legged legs of his. Altho he was curled up like he was sleeping, it devasted me. I gunned my car down as fast as I could. Ran out of my car to the bedroom upstairs. I woke josh up by yelling, "HE'S DEAD!!! HUCKS DEAD!!!!! " He just stared at me in disbelief and shook his head. He asked where, so he could make sure he was dead and not injuried. I took him to the horrible site and josh got out of the car to check Hucks lifeless body. "Hes gone Em" We both went back to bed, completely horrified. Held eachother in our arms and cried all night. Our buddy is gone. He brought Josh and I so much happiness. I slept an hour and then told Josh I cant see him on the road everyday. Rickie agreed to come out and put his body in a bag. Josh had to go to Penn. today, so he couldnt do it. We carried him to a beautiful place called Boones Creek Camp. This is where I grew up, fell in love and wanted my dog to be. If you go out there sometime you will see a little grave that holds 1 of many dogs buried there. A simple one, but an honoring one. Marking the grave is a big rock my daddywalter gave me, sticks lying across it, and 3 daffodils. Hes buried in view of a lovely pond we had taken him before. Huck deserved a proper burial. Though a dog, he just wasnt. Thank you camp and Rickie for allowing me to do this.

Will I ever get over this? In some ways yes and in some ways no. Theres no dog like him, but I also have this little baby boy kicking me as I am typing this. God has blessed me with 3 1/2 years with my little buddy. I appreciate every moment with him. I can't wait to focus my love 2x more to my little boy. Im thankful for those moments. I have a motherly heart and now its just a waiting game to use that.

We will miss you Huckleberry, thank you for everything.

Moon River, wider than a mile, I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker, wherever you're going I'm going your way.
Two drifters off to see the world. There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end-- waiting 'round the bend,
my huckleberry friend, Moon River and me.

nineteen/twenty.

BOY, OH BOY!

Yes, you should know this by now if you keep up with my FB, just thought I would share it again. Am I excitied... of COURSE!!! Im pretty sure its all I can think about now. I go to stores and just browse the boy clothes, toys, etc. Yes, Im in love with my little buddy. I just wanted to say first of all. For those of you who will get pregnant in the future... dont ever believe those old wives tales!!! haha. My grandma insisted doing some weird string thing... it said I was having a girl. I have heard the heart beat if over 140, then you are having a girl... NOT true. They say if you eat like a teenage boy then you are having a boy... NOT true. Just dont listen haha. I thought I was having a boy in the beginning. Then second guessed myself. Then went back. Hey guess what... its all guessing. lol.

I have some names picked out that Im pretty proud of, I will share them with you when we find the final name. I have to say they are stinkin cute! We will see what Josh says ;) I hope to be able to share this with you soon. Im eager to name this little man.

The ultrasound experience

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Walking into the office, I was so excitied I could barely stand it. I could tell Josh was the same. I had drank my bottle of water and popped in some M&M's so my baby would move some. So I was a little hyped up. They called us all back and started to prepare my belly, I held my breath most of the time.I keep seeing this little thing on the screen every once and a while and thought maybe it was a boy... but I waited. Then she annouced it, A BOY! Tears immediately filled my eyes, my moms, and Joshs. After the appt. calls were being made in the hallway. I could tell Josh was excitied when he tried to get his phone and just dropped it on the floor into pieces. haha. We were all excitied to FINALLY know!

Anything like me, by Brad Paisley

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I remember sayin' I don't care either way
Just as long as he or she is healthy, I'm okay
And then the doctor pointed to the corner of the screen
And said, "You see that thing right there? Well, you know what that means"

I started wondering who he was going to be
And I thought heaven help us if he's anything like me

He'll probably climb a tree too tall and ride his bike too fast
End up every summer wearin' something in a cast
He's gonna throw a ball and break some glass
In a window down the street

He's gonna get in trouble, oh, he's gonna get in fights
I'm gonna lose my temper and some sleep
It's safe to say that I'm gonna get my payback
If he's anything like me

I can see him right now, knees all skinned up
With a magnifying glass tryin' to melt a Tonka truck
Won't he be a sight with his football helmet on?
That'll be his first love 'til his first love comes along

He'll get his heart broke by the time he's in his teens
And heaven help him if he's anything like me

He'll probably stay out too late and drive his car too fast
Get a speeding ticket, he'll pay for mowing grass
He's gonna get caught skippin' class
And be grounded for a week

He's gonna get into trouble, we're gonna get in fights
I'm gonna lose my temper and some sleep
It's safe to say that I'm gonna get my payback
If he's anything like me

He's gonna love me
And hate me along the way
The years are gonna fly by
And I already dread the day

He's gonna hug his mama, he's gonna shake my hand
He's gonna act like he can't wait to leave

But as he drives out he'll cry his eyes out
If he's anything like me
There's worst folks to be like, oh, he'll be alright
If he's anything like me

19 & 20 weeks
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Symptoms: Bigger belly, and yet still so small. Feeling fantastic!

Weight: I really haven't gained much weight at all. I'm hoping it continues this way from this point on. ( knock on wood) I really have had a good pregnancy so far.

Sleep: I haven't been sleeping as well as I usually do. My back aches at night which wakes me. I usually have to make bathroom trips in the middle of the night.

Movement: This little guy moves a bunch! When I am on my back he starts to get really restless. I think hes trying to say " MOM, Please MOVE!!!" Its probably because theres less room for him and my spine is pressing on him. Poor little guy, lol. Im hoping Josh will feel him move soon. :)

Eighteen.

18 Weeks

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Symptoms: Feeling alot better this week. No symptoms to really complain about :)

Weight: They weighed me at the doctor and I have gained 3 pounds! Why you ask am I excited about this? It may be because I lost some weight while I was sick and have been worried about it. I worry about everything now that I am pregnant. What I eat, when I eat it, etc etc. Im kind of annoying.

Sleep: I have been going to sleep well, but not staying asleep. I have noticed a big difference in my body lately and I think its starting to disturb my sleeping habits. They say to sleep on your side, which I did anyway... BUT without a pillow between my legs I get a sharp pain running down my back. Body Pillows help.

Movement: I feel it move more often everyday. It seems to be a little stronger everytime it moves or kicks. Its probably my favorite feeling EVER. I rub my little belly all the time.

What Im missing: Im kind of getting sick of drinking water and sprite all the time. Every now and then I'll sneak a sweet tea just to make myself feel better.

Seventeen

(possible nursery theme)

17 weeks

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( Im actually 18 today, but I like to write about the week before)

Symptons: This has to be one of the worst weeks for me... Even though being in my second trimester things are suppose to be looking "peachy". Well not so much. I blame Josh. haha. I have this HORRIBLE cold that will not go away. It started to develop Sunday afternoon, and well its Thursday and still hasn't gone. I guess with what I have been reading being pregnant makes sickness last a bit longer. Just lovely. I have a bad cough, runny nose, congestion, aches, no energy, and just feeling all around bad. I went to the doctor and they now say I have fluid on my lungs. I HATE taking medications, which is ironic since I am a pharmacy tech. Now that I am pregnant I hate taking anything even more. I had to just suck it up and realize getting pneumonia while pregnant would be worse. I ended up getting an antibotic which is not harmful to my baby. Im just extremely paranoid about the littlest of things.

Weight: Not much change there. I may have gained a pound or two, but I can see my bump started to develop and thankfully its just going to that area. My pants are loose in the bum area and legs, which is rather odd to me. I thought it would be going there first, hehe

Sleep: Very little. This is because of my recent illness, the coughing keeps me up ALL night!

Movement: My little bean moves like a little acrobat in there! When I was seen today for my antibotic she checked its little heartbeat. It was moving everywhere! I think its ADD like me, haha. The heartbeat ended up being 141, which I think last time we checked it was 140. I love it! I can feel it more and more now. Its like I have a bunch of butterflies flying around in there. love love love

What I'm Missing: this week I miss just being able to breath again. Im sick of being sick.

Prayers: Please pray for both my health and the babys health.

Sixteen

The day of my sixteenth week I lost a dear friend and family member in a car accident, Adam Kuehne. He was one of us, which is really hard to understand that he is gone now. I believe that everything happens for a reason, I believe that God is using this... but sometimes its still hard to understand. We must rejoice even in the pain because he was a Christ follower. He is at the feet of Christ and theres no place he would rather be. So its not sad for Adam, its just sad for the people who will miss him. Through all of this I am different. I'm not taking life for granted anymore... its too short. Lifes too short to hold grudges, Lifes too short to complain, Lifes too short not to tell the ones you love you love them. I feel like this is something we can all learn and I hope to always remember this. Love you Adam and Miss you. Goodnight, goodnight till then.

Goodnight by Matthew Smith

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I journey forth rejoicing

From this dark vale of tears

To heavenly joy and freedom

From earthly bonds and fears

Where Christ our Lord shall gather

All His redeemed again, His kingdom to inherit

Goodnight, goodnight till then

Why thus so sadly weeping

Beloved ones of my heart?

The Lord is good and gracious

Though now He bids us part

Oft have we met in gladness

And we shall meet again

All sorrow left behind us--

Goodnight, goodnight till then

I go to see His glory

Whom we have loved below

I go, the blessed angels

The holy saints to know.

Our lovely ones departed

I go to find again

And wait for you to join us--

Goodnight, goodnight till then

I hear the Savior calling

The joyful hour has come

The angel-guards are ready

To guide me to our home

Where Christ our Lord shall gather

All His redeemed again,

His kingdom to inherit

Goodnight, goodnight till then

fourteen

Such a sweet little nursery...

i love looking at baby rooms. its my new obsession.

14 weeks

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Symptoms: I feel fantastic! I'm loving this 2nd trimester! I really don't have very many symptoms at all. I feel tired very quickly, I usually feel like going to bed at 8-9ish. This is not really uncommon for me though. I have strange cravings. I sometimes want sauerkraut, pecan rolls, and pancakes. Things I rarely, if ever eat. I haven't been able to eat red meat for some reason, it just makes me a little sick to think about it. Which is not me at all, lol. I went to the doctor and she said due to this fact I am becoming anemic. So I must force myself I guess.

Weight: It varies... some days its the same as before I got pregnant. Some days 3-5 pounds less. My doctor said I'm healthy, but since I'm now in my 2nd trimester I need to eat more. Still a very little baby bump. ( pics in a couple of weeks )

Sleep: Like a baby. Nothing has changed yet. Thankfully.

Movement: I always think I'm feeling my little one move, but more than likely it's not him/her. I can't wait to feel it move!

What I'm Missing: It was hard at first, but I rarely crave my cokes. I'm getting use to drinking water, sprite, and ginger ale. I miss being able to do certain activites, snow sledding, skiing and im sure this summer going to theme parks and water parks. Oh well its so very worth it!

Prayers: Pray that we will find out where we should be soon. It is so incredibly hard to plan when you don't know where your going to end up. I pray daily for 3 things, that my baby will one day know Christ, that Josh and I will be good parents, and that we will raise him/her up in a good christian household.

God bless

Em

What a blessing.

Good morning.

(Caffeine how I miss you)

So technically I'm 12 weeks today, but I decided to post all about it next week. It's going by so very fast! Seems like just yesterday I found out and was all teary eyed. I feel like I need to slow down and enjoy this. Nesting is built in a mom to be. So I day dream alot and plan. Its really the only thing I can do right now.

Things that go through my head all the time:

What if its a boy?

More than likely he will be a mini Josh. Hunting, fishing, camping, will be in his future im sure. He will be a momma's boy.

What if its a girl? Pink fluff, barbies, painting, and cute little outfits will probably be in her future. She will be the apple of our eyes.

So either way... im happy.

I'm happy because I will be holding a little bundle of joy that only God can give. What a blessing.

Eleven.

11 weeks

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Symptoms: I'm feeling 10x better than a few weeks ago. Every once in a while I smell something and get a little sick to my stomach, but all in all... its wonderful. I have been craving random things, blueberry muffins, pot pie, and african coffee. I will be sitting at my desk at work and these crazy craving come to me. I also have been forgeting things lately. Maybe because my mind is so focused on baby, cars, and new houses. Its making me insane. Good times.

Weight: Havent checked lately, but Im feeling the same as before. Just with bigger belly bump. I rub it often, haha. ( I will post picture when I feel comfortable :P )

Sleep Habits: Same as before, really great! I sleep better now than I ever have!

Prayers: Please pray for both me and Josh. We have a great amount of stress on our shoulders. Nesting, etc... It has been hard for me to realize to relax and trust God. Please pray that He will point us in the right direction and that we put Him first in our life.

Em

First Photograph!

It makes me smile everytime. He/She is worth the nausea, fatigue, and mood swings!

This is the start to my pregnancy blog. I wanted to record and savor every moment of my pregnancy.

10 Weeks

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Symptoms: Fatigue. I get so tired doing just about anything. Nausea. Thankfully this is slowly going away, or at least Im getting use to it.

Weight: I lost 3 pounds last week. This was because I couldn't eat anything! My appetite has FINALLY come back & I have noticed a small belly bump showing :)

Cravings: Honey Nut Cheerios, this is my main meal.

Sleep Habits: I sleep great or at least when Josh isn't snoring. I also have noticed I have the best dreams! They are SO clear and interesting! I love sleeping

I find out the gender at 20 weeks, so 10 more weeks to go!

Hope you have a lovely week.

God Bless

Em